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MARNE KILATES
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from
Antinostalgia & the Tokhang
Rhapsodies
from
Antinostalgia & the Tokhang
Rhapsodies
From Mga Biyahe, Mga Estasyon
From Journeys, Junctions
(a collection of travel poems)
from
Antinostalgia & the Tokhang
Rhapsodies
Poems 2022
Poems 2022
Poems 2022
Poems 2022
From Mga Biyahe, Mga Estasyon
From Journeys, Junctions
(a collection of travel poems)
From Mga Biyahe, Mga Estasyon
From Journeys, Junctions
(a collection of travel poems)
From Mga Biyahe, Mga Estasyon
From Journeys, Junctions
(a collection of travel poems)
From Mga Biyahe, Mga Estasyon
From Journeys, Junctions
(a collection of travel poems)
From Mga Biyahe, Mga Estasyon
From Journeys, Junctions
(a collection of travel poems)
From Mga Biyahe, Mga Estasyon
From Journeys, Junctions
(a collection of travel poems)
From Mga Biyahe, Mga Estasyon
From Journeys, Junctions
(a collection of travel poems)
Bless me, Father, for having sins.
I’ve mastered most of them,
They increased my vocabulary:
I talked back to my parents,
I stole a glance at my seatmate’s
Test paper, did not look away
When a female classmate
Absentmindedly opened her legs
To leave her seat, I lied, filched
A bill from Mother’s wallet,
I played with myself.
Masturbate was such a hairy word,
My Guardian Angel wept
When he first heard it, or when
He first heard me snicker
With the boys who made a joke of it.
God wore a purple stole
Over his shoulders, over the brown
Habit that sometimes reeked
Of sweat. He had a halo round his
Balding pate as I peered through
The screen of the confessional,
He was Franciscan and Spanish,
And spoke Bikol with an accent—
Strange and stentorian with
Lots of th’s, aspirated, tongue
Between the teeth—gesturing with
His white hands: thumb, index,
And middle finger extended,
Ring and pinky folded: Writing
A cross in the air: Forgiveness
Was tender even if he rolled his r’s
In Patawarrron ka nin Dios,
Penance was benign and generous
For the white lies, the sins mastered
With my cathechist, while hell fire
Was reserved (a whole round
Of the Sorrowful Mysteries,
Or helping clean up the sacristy)
For “playing with myself.”
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That was the State of Sin
From Grade One till Grade Six,
Extended through the Catholic
High School for Boys, from the Dawn
Mystery of the First Communion
To the tedious recycling of regular
Transgressions for the First Friday
Devotions, and later, the quick
Absolution of the Act of Contrition.
By College and on to Employment,
One was prepared to commit,
Omit, or ignore the sins of the world,
The sins against One’s Self, or the sins
Against The Other—O my God, I am
Heartily sorry for having offended Thee—
Venial, mortal, murder, betrayal,
Cowardice, vice, eternal damnation.
Marne Kilates
27 February 2018
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